*sigh

Always be careful who yu love- the one yu love can break your heart for eternity, the one yu love can make u incapable of loving someone else, even them! But no matter what, if yu know yu have done nothing wrong- keep loving yourself, keep moving forward- keep your stride and hold your head high! See I, I will never let anyone break my stride, see I will never let anyone make me rest my head unhigh, see I walk wit the stars and the power of a god, see I love thy self before putting anyone else first, see I never would put anyone first and above thy,except the neccesary, see I enstil qualities and learn lessons from my mistakes and others, see I -thought I was powerful and mighty until I met a girl called LOVE, and LOVE she has a way of breaking me down, causing me to become physically sick, see LOVE has her way of breaking the worlds strongest man into two, see LOVE is minupulative and pulls the wool over your eyes, see LOVE makes yu blind and make yu cry, see LOVE is that uncontrollable emotion that makes yu smile BUT will make yu frown, see LOVE is LOVE and no matter how hard yu try and how hard yu hide, LOVE will find yu, LOVE will make yu- but don't let thes pros fool yu cause LOVE shall break yu too! And how yu deal with it, is your choice -yu and only yu will be able to see if thou is TRUE!

love lost

Babe are yu okay, do yu need anything she asks! Physically I type I'm fine, what's makes yu ask that
but mentally I'm screamin to myself TRUST is what I want, need, and fien for•
Not once have I done anything where I was like this will hurt Asia, never kissed another,
touched another, nor have I yearned for another. Its kills me because I feel as if she's hurting
herself with these trust issues. *sigh, I remember when we first started talkin, the way things were, were crazy!
But now its a different us! I promised her I wud never lie, to always be honest! She said I love yu, I said
Thank yu! I wasn't in love yet, and that's one emotion I'd vow to never mess with!
Now when I say I I'm in love with yu, I know she thinks its unsincere, and I HATE IT- my friends
Say I've changed, but for the better! I'm hopin its a good thing " cause when I look in the mirrow
I see change, and I hope that she does too"

love lost

Babe are yu okay, do yu need anything she asks! Physically I type I'm fine, what's makes yu ask that
but mentally I'm screamin to myself TRUST is what I want, need, and fien for•
Not once have I done anything where I was like this will hurt Asia, never kissed another,
touched another, nor have I yearned for another. Its kills me because I feel as if she's hurting
herself with these trust issues. *sigh, I remember when we first started talkin, the way things were, were crazy!
But now its a different us! I promised her I wud never lie, to always be honest! She said I love yu, I said
Thank yu! I wasn't in love yet, and that's one emotion I'd vow to never mess with!
Now when I say I I'm in love with yu, I know she thinks its unsincere, and I HATE IT- my friends
Say I've changed, but for the better! I'm hopin its a good thing " cause when I look in the mirrow
I see change, and I hope that she does too"

another day.

well yesterday i was to tired to get at this after all the festivities were done. LOL. so ill start from the morning and work my way down LOL

okay so the night before i was in my r.a.`s room with some of my team mates watching movies and just laughing at crazy stuff- so i finally get to my apt/room and try to watch something before i knock out. LOL. the following morning Kendra [my r.a.] is knockin on everyones doors to be up for the school orientatioon. so i shower and get ready and this is around 8something that morning. i head off to the orientation--needless to say i was mad i went LMAO. i was dead tired and it was a guess speaker that ironically spoke at mojave. so that was that- after that we went with our advisors- and because im lost on what my major is [either criminal justice or psychology] i went with the criminal justice majors- and there wasnt that many of us shockingly. LOL. so we sat in there and listened to him BORING! its now about 12 and there was a HUGE FREE BBQ in the quad area- so i ate came back to my dorm and went to the gym. the team was there plus some other guys-- and we had some good runs. we are all just trying to get the feel of each other. i left went to placement testing which was full came back to my rooml.and that was that. LOL. so we had a scheduled HALL meeting that no one showed up too. YEAH A WAIST i was mad cause i couldve been sleeping LOL. after a majority of the team went to to eat in the lunch room whatever yu want to call it. LOL. GROSS AS SERVING that day lol. [today was better] after that we went to a mandatory skit called SEX SIGNALS it was funny and very educational. talked about rape and body language from the opposite or same sex. LOL. that lasted a good 2hrs. after wards we had speed socilaizing- which is like speed dating LOL. it was hella coo and funny. . this is about 10.pm. needless to say im still going off 4hrs of sleep and havent had what we call POWERNAPS in the city. lol. then we kicked it around campus acting goofy. OH YEAH i forgot i played beach volleyball met some coo` people. LOL. that was super fun. -now back to where i was. we kicked it from dorm to dorm- hall to hall LOL. went back to my R.A.`s room for yet another movie night. this time we were all wrapped up in this movie I LEFT. and came and went to sleep . at like 2 this morning.

so far today has been a good day-still sleepy tho- woke up feelin sick- but it went away during the day. took my placement test- TESTED into some higher classes. WHOOP WHOOP. then went to the soccer game. never been to one in my life. and it was pretty coo and now im sittin here in my room LOL. so far i like college. not LOVE.lol. wish i was at a univesity. LOL

the rules here are way to strict. people are literally scared to party on campus LOL. and quiet hrs on the weekend- come on now man who has heard of that.

P.S. twin beds and a body frame like mines does not GO WELL. at all.

oh yeah pics from where im at. ill show yall. ahaha

college.

. yesterday was a pretty stressesd filled day- and i found out alot. but now its all good

-okay today i moved into my dorms finally. i got alot of things situated. everything is going all good. had an ice breaker with some of the people from the dorm. then went to the dorm orientation- kind of felt like high school and middle school when yu had the deans orientaion. but overall i had a good time. LOL. my apartment mates are cool- one is from south korea [and he likes my music LOL. and YAY to south korea and not north LOL.] my room mate hasnt moved in yet. one os from alaska i rarely see him and the other is from cali -havent see him niether. but oh well theres a entire year ahead. the weather here is SUPER cold btw lol. man this is going to take some getting use to FA SHO. ahaha

also i went in to the gym today-did some running and shootin. i need to start lifting again.! BUT OVERALL life is going well right now.

p.s. remember when life gets hard LETgo and letGOD. everyone have a blesses day or night.