same ole thang

theres really not that much on my mind right about npow- but i felt as if i owed yu any update LOL

life**

Life is life. That has to be the best way that i can even remotely explain this complexed word ! Honestly, i dont even want to understand the concept of life and what is expected.

My thoughts have been in so many places lately. I cant even function without one thing or another being on my mind. First my grandfather is becoming sick- and i am hoping it is just that. As much as I dont want to think about it, it just constantly is brought to my mind. Its hard for me because my grandparents are the root to my family. Im not gon` even lie, IM SCARED yo. I pray every night. Right now the passion and desire burning inside me is to succeed! I want my grandparents to see one of their grandchildren walk across the COLLEGE STAGE! I want to be able to be the first, and set the standards and milestones for my younger cousins. I have always thought that my personal accomplishments ONLY benefited me, needless to say I WAS WRONG ; my family is my backbone, I do it for THEM!! and because of them I LIVE!!, I LIVE!! Sometimes I just lay in my bed at night and just think, think, and think. " LORD", I say , "can he please stay?" -I ask, and he answers . . . Its hard but I try to keep my composure and remain OPTIMISTIC but we all know how life is! But I have faith in my grandfather. I love him man! Its crazy but moments like these is what makes me appreciate life, but it also makes me realize LIFE IS REAL!!

as far as basketball-- the subject is wierd right now for me. Honestly, I have never been this confused in my life about anything, especially something Im passionate for. I was telling my close friends, I feel helpless sometimes. I also believe that me taking a season off from basketball is a good thing. But this season off also made things come into a much broader perspective! I know for a fact in order for me to go to any D-1 I will have to pick up my guard skills. . . dont really feel like going into this right now!

see ya later. a foo like me will update later. IM BOUT TO GET TURNT *smh lol

DAY3 of our month baby

wassup world.

wassup WORLD, how have yu guys been lately? im just out here living my life is splendid coos bay, OR *sarcasm -

WELCOME TO BLACK HISTORY MONTH;; we really should educate ourselves more!!!

all the above

"up in the studio, me and my drank, me and my drank. . . .will somebody pleasse double cup me"

No one understands my pain, struggle, and thoughts. They are all hear but no one is really hearing. -does that make sense?? Im not sure but it is to me. There are so many things wrong with life, that we all tend to focus on the negative. There are so many positive ways that we can all appreciate the beauties of the Earth. My mind is in so many places right now, I can not even begin to imagine where my thoughts are going to end at.

*sigh

Always be careful who yu love- the one yu love can break your heart for eternity, the one yu love can make u incapable of loving someone else, even them! But no matter what, if yu know yu have done nothing wrong- keep loving yourself, keep moving forward- keep your stride and hold your head high! See I, I will never let anyone break my stride, see I will never let anyone make me rest my head unhigh, see I walk wit the stars and the power of a god, see I love thy self before putting anyone else first, see I never would put anyone first and above thy,except the neccesary, see I enstil qualities and learn lessons from my mistakes and others, see I -thought I was powerful and mighty until I met a girl called LOVE, and LOVE she has a way of breaking me down, causing me to become physically sick, see LOVE has her way of breaking the worlds strongest man into two, see LOVE is minupulative and pulls the wool over your eyes, see LOVE makes yu blind and make yu cry, see LOVE is that uncontrollable emotion that makes yu smile BUT will make yu frown, see LOVE is LOVE and no matter how hard yu try and how hard yu hide, LOVE will find yu, LOVE will make yu- but don't let thes pros fool yu cause LOVE shall break yu too! And how yu deal with it, is your choice -yu and only yu will be able to see if thou is TRUE!

love lost

Babe are yu okay, do yu need anything she asks! Physically I type I'm fine, what's makes yu ask that
but mentally I'm screamin to myself TRUST is what I want, need, and fien for•
Not once have I done anything where I was like this will hurt Asia, never kissed another,
touched another, nor have I yearned for another. Its kills me because I feel as if she's hurting
herself with these trust issues. *sigh, I remember when we first started talkin, the way things were, were crazy!
But now its a different us! I promised her I wud never lie, to always be honest! She said I love yu, I said
Thank yu! I wasn't in love yet, and that's one emotion I'd vow to never mess with!
Now when I say I I'm in love with yu, I know she thinks its unsincere, and I HATE IT- my friends
Say I've changed, but for the better! I'm hopin its a good thing " cause when I look in the mirrow
I see change, and I hope that she does too"

love lost

Babe are yu okay, do yu need anything she asks! Physically I type I'm fine, what's makes yu ask that
but mentally I'm screamin to myself TRUST is what I want, need, and fien for•
Not once have I done anything where I was like this will hurt Asia, never kissed another,
touched another, nor have I yearned for another. Its kills me because I feel as if she's hurting
herself with these trust issues. *sigh, I remember when we first started talkin, the way things were, were crazy!
But now its a different us! I promised her I wud never lie, to always be honest! She said I love yu, I said
Thank yu! I wasn't in love yet, and that's one emotion I'd vow to never mess with!
Now when I say I I'm in love with yu, I know she thinks its unsincere, and I HATE IT- my friends
Say I've changed, but for the better! I'm hopin its a good thing " cause when I look in the mirrow
I see change, and I hope that she does too"